thanks Zivah. I think when youve got things in your mind and clear imsges you can just let them come out in a stream. it was quite a long time ago and it was much worse for the staff on the ground and the taxi driver it was bad for him, i felt very sorry for him poor soul just one moment of not paying attention and then a panic. he went to prison.
This felt so real, I’m not surprised that it was a true story. I’m so sorry you had to go through that. You did a fantastic job, not to mention a quick turnaround after a very late night (how the heck did you do that?!).
Thank you for reading and feeding back Zivah - yes it was a late one for sure - but someimes you get an idea and it just unfolds like a flower - was going to say a beautiful flower - but this wasnt one like that - and it formed in my head, the thing i wanted to say, and it was sunday, so I had time - just sat down and let it out - it did not take long - tidying up my terrible innacurate tpying after the speed blast took almost as long haha.
hope to see something from you when you are ready ! sometimes they take a while, sometimes not
I love those moments when you have the time and something is burning inside.
My first go has produced something quite random. In the cold light of day it might be beautiful but I’m not opening my notebook until coffee has been fully absorbed!
I don't usually write horror, as I may have mentioned before. But I think I could probably do a good one based on true events. Except it would be far too scary and real for most people. I think most people, when they choose to read (or watch) horror, only do so because they know it's not real.
That's even the case with found footage movies. Plus of course, nowadays when you preface something with 'based on a true story', they assume that's just a postmodern trope and it's not really true.
Like after the Saw and Hostel movies, if you showed people a genuine snuff movie they'd assume it wasn't real.
And this, Neo, is how the Matrix came to be. Welcome, to the desert, of the real...
Excellent! Can I do some more kung fu now Morpheus?
Thanks Edith - it was easy to write this, because basically its a true story from when I worked for the public transport authority and a taxi driver ran over an old lady. I had to watch the footage a lot. Close my eyes - its still there. There were a lot of old thought processes just woke up at once - funny that it was the prompt that did it - the word Tar more than anything.
But isn't funny how people will happily sit through a horror movie, or series of them, and not experience some negative psychological side effect, but when they see it in real life it's totally different.
I'm sure there's something profound about narrative theory in that somewhere. At the moment, though, whatever that profound thing might be I think it's gotten lost in the motions, as it were.
I had to come back to this after reading it the first time because it hits so hard and my knee-jerk reaction to pain is comedy, which is only ever fair if it is my own pain. I think it has sat with me long enough to say: This is the best thing I've read from you so far. It is raw, incredibly well-written, and tight. Also: I'm so sorry, Nick.
Wow - I am at a loss for words. Thank you so much - and perhaps I need to to put some warnings on this because it wasn't my intention for it to affect people as it seems to have done given some of the comments. - it was more like unburdening myself from a lot of thoughts that had just sat unresolved - getting myself into the head space to let it go - like form of self hypnosis or something. In a way I almost feel like I did not create this - it was created in me and just slunk around in the corners for ten years or so. I hope it wasn't upsetting for you - and again, I'm really touched by you taking time to give me such amazing encouraging and supportive feedback.
Oh man, it was upsetting and that's exactly why I dig it! I read to be affected.
I just want to make sure that my irreverent humor doesn't add salt to someone's wounds when I read something that feels personal, and sometimes I just need to let something stew in my head before I react.
It is such a powerful and brave thing to do; reliving the trauma but shaping it so poetically in a stream of consciousness takes real skill... it touched me for reasons I won't share because this is your story, but know that it touched me.
and thank you for the kind words...and the lesson ... its one of my weaknesses ... posting my own experience into peoples posts rather than just letting it be what it is, because i want to show that I know what they are on about... but really I should just keep my neck wound in... 👍
We are all storytellers, so our initial response to a story is to write one of our own. Your work made me realise there was a story deep down - now it wants to come out. I need to figure out if I can actually do that. That is what reading does: inspire.
oh wow! I wasnt thinking it was brave at all to get those old thoughts out into a sort of cohesive stream. Im feeling a bit bad because people are giving me sympathy but really the piece was coming from an analysis of ... the randomness of the world and how you cant seem to change it even though you wish you could...
It made me sad at the time but you see more and more death as you get older and theres been sadder things than this for me and those round me. there isnt much that makes me feel real deep sorrow. injustice and suffering in others... people not getting their fair chance to live a life is what guts me worst.
Thank Nick. the word Tar last night at like 2:30 am... it made me think of tarmac and then suddenly the video was on in my head again. isnt the mind weird?!
Oh God. I am so sorry that you had to watch that over and over. Even sorrier for the elderly woman and the taxi driver. A while back, someone from my town decided to commit suicide by jumping in front of a tractor trailer truck - I've always felt horrible about it. What can drive someone to do such a thing? And the poor truck driver... I know if it ever happened to me, I'd never drive again. I hope writing this helped you a bit, at least... if it's any consolation, it is an excellent story, but I'm still sorry that it's true.
thanks Zivah. I think when youve got things in your mind and clear imsges you can just let them come out in a stream. it was quite a long time ago and it was much worse for the staff on the ground and the taxi driver it was bad for him, i felt very sorry for him poor soul just one moment of not paying attention and then a panic. he went to prison.
This felt so real, I’m not surprised that it was a true story. I’m so sorry you had to go through that. You did a fantastic job, not to mention a quick turnaround after a very late night (how the heck did you do that?!).
Thank you for reading and feeding back Zivah - yes it was a late one for sure - but someimes you get an idea and it just unfolds like a flower - was going to say a beautiful flower - but this wasnt one like that - and it formed in my head, the thing i wanted to say, and it was sunday, so I had time - just sat down and let it out - it did not take long - tidying up my terrible innacurate tpying after the speed blast took almost as long haha.
hope to see something from you when you are ready ! sometimes they take a while, sometimes not
I love those moments when you have the time and something is burning inside.
My first go has produced something quite random. In the cold light of day it might be beautiful but I’m not opening my notebook until coffee has been fully absorbed!
This is another great one.
I don't usually write horror, as I may have mentioned before. But I think I could probably do a good one based on true events. Except it would be far too scary and real for most people. I think most people, when they choose to read (or watch) horror, only do so because they know it's not real.
That's even the case with found footage movies. Plus of course, nowadays when you preface something with 'based on a true story', they assume that's just a postmodern trope and it's not really true.
Like after the Saw and Hostel movies, if you showed people a genuine snuff movie they'd assume it wasn't real.
And this, Neo, is how the Matrix came to be. Welcome, to the desert, of the real...
Excellent! Can I do some more kung fu now Morpheus?
No, Neo, you may not. We did kung fu yesterday.
Bogus.
yes... theres quite a bit of true story stuff. youre absolutely right its being used as a bit of a thing isnt it. sometimes it works really well
I love this, this is good. Really enjoyed the whole journey you took us through. It was wonderful.
Thanks Edith - it was easy to write this, because basically its a true story from when I worked for the public transport authority and a taxi driver ran over an old lady. I had to watch the footage a lot. Close my eyes - its still there. There were a lot of old thought processes just woke up at once - funny that it was the prompt that did it - the word Tar more than anything.
You poor thing.
But isn't funny how people will happily sit through a horror movie, or series of them, and not experience some negative psychological side effect, but when they see it in real life it's totally different.
I'm sure there's something profound about narrative theory in that somewhere. At the moment, though, whatever that profound thing might be I think it's gotten lost in the motions, as it were.
there was a worse one but I didnt have to watch it.
I had to come back to this after reading it the first time because it hits so hard and my knee-jerk reaction to pain is comedy, which is only ever fair if it is my own pain. I think it has sat with me long enough to say: This is the best thing I've read from you so far. It is raw, incredibly well-written, and tight. Also: I'm so sorry, Nick.
Wow - I am at a loss for words. Thank you so much - and perhaps I need to to put some warnings on this because it wasn't my intention for it to affect people as it seems to have done given some of the comments. - it was more like unburdening myself from a lot of thoughts that had just sat unresolved - getting myself into the head space to let it go - like form of self hypnosis or something. In a way I almost feel like I did not create this - it was created in me and just slunk around in the corners for ten years or so. I hope it wasn't upsetting for you - and again, I'm really touched by you taking time to give me such amazing encouraging and supportive feedback.
Oh man, it was upsetting and that's exactly why I dig it! I read to be affected.
I just want to make sure that my irreverent humor doesn't add salt to someone's wounds when I read something that feels personal, and sometimes I just need to let something stew in my head before I react.
There is something special about a fiction writer telling a true story. Excellent work as always.
Loved this one
Hi Vince! thanks for reading and letting me know. means a lot to me! 😎
It is such a powerful and brave thing to do; reliving the trauma but shaping it so poetically in a stream of consciousness takes real skill... it touched me for reasons I won't share because this is your story, but know that it touched me.
and thank you for the kind words...and the lesson ... its one of my weaknesses ... posting my own experience into peoples posts rather than just letting it be what it is, because i want to show that I know what they are on about... but really I should just keep my neck wound in... 👍
We are all storytellers, so our initial response to a story is to write one of our own. Your work made me realise there was a story deep down - now it wants to come out. I need to figure out if I can actually do that. That is what reading does: inspire.
I hope you find your words and your story 😀
inspiration is everywhere here. so many great minds and working in so many different and unexpected ways!
oh wow! I wasnt thinking it was brave at all to get those old thoughts out into a sort of cohesive stream. Im feeling a bit bad because people are giving me sympathy but really the piece was coming from an analysis of ... the randomness of the world and how you cant seem to change it even though you wish you could...
It made me sad at the time but you see more and more death as you get older and theres been sadder things than this for me and those round me. there isnt much that makes me feel real deep sorrow. injustice and suffering in others... people not getting their fair chance to live a life is what guts me worst.
Fuck.... me.... Out-fucking-standing.
Jesus bro. This is intense. I felt every word of that. Bravo.
Thank Nick. the word Tar last night at like 2:30 am... it made me think of tarmac and then suddenly the video was on in my head again. isnt the mind weird?!
Oh God. I am so sorry that you had to watch that over and over. Even sorrier for the elderly woman and the taxi driver. A while back, someone from my town decided to commit suicide by jumping in front of a tractor trailer truck - I've always felt horrible about it. What can drive someone to do such a thing? And the poor truck driver... I know if it ever happened to me, I'd never drive again. I hope writing this helped you a bit, at least... if it's any consolation, it is an excellent story, but I'm still sorry that it's true.
it was a long time ago now and its only now and again it comes to mind.